I leave to Japan early this morning.
Everything is exactly where it is meant to be. I feel as though I am dreaming but for now I am going to watch Jiro Dreams of Sushi and think about where I am going to be this time tomorrow. I am so wonderfully happy.
I am doing okay.
This week has been so simple with a streamlined focus on my university projects. I have spent most nights this week inside computer labs and it doesn’t even feel half bad.
I adore the people in my life and it is real nice when something you once cared about no longer makes much sense to be thought of. Sometimes I think I am very lucky. Also this time in two weeks I’ll be wandering the streets of Shibuya.
This last week has been pretty all over the place. I am so positive and feeling all the good I could possibly feel and then something triggers that heavy sick feeling.
I thought I was getting better but I guess I’m not just yet. But I know how I cope and I can just off load all that hurt into control. I am learning so much about myself every day.
I can’t wait until my foot heals enough that I can go for a run. That would be real nice. I like being by myself. People exhaust me.
This week has been a constant shift between really good and really bad. Lucky for me the bad doesn’t seem to last for very long.
So next month I am spending three weeks travelling to Japan and Hong Kong because things have a strange way of working out for me.
Even though I miss the way my world was, I do not think I would change to go back. Too many good things are already happening and coming! I have no idea how this year is going to pan out but it is all so exciting just as long as I work very very hard.
Day was most definitely wonderfully great!
I feel so extraordinarily grateful for my life right now. Thank you universe.
Tomorrow in all seriousness is either going to be wonderfully great or terrifyingly bad.
This week has been really odd and I am so out of my comfort zone. I am constructing this new kind of identity for myself to make up for lost time. I am scared but dementedly excited. I love this new found energy and productivity I have. I am trying hard to be positive and possess some kind of gratitude for whatever is thrown my way.
At least I am embracing being a real dork, right?
It was my 21st birthday thing last night.
Everything was glowing and beautiful. I have so much love for the people around me. And I hope I do not ever forget dancing to Girls Just Wanna Have Fun with my loves.
I am so happy, it feels incredible.
It is my birthday for another six minutes. I turned 21 today.
For the first time in so long I actually had a wonderful birthday. I cannot even put into words how grateful I am for the amazing people around me. This weekend should be a great deal of fun.
I have so much love today. 21 is my lucky number.
I am going to be that terribly positive person from now on. Or try to be.
Also I turn 21 on Thursday. This makes me laugh.
Where does it say in human handbook that you completely stop caring for someone after a week???
SO fuck that. I’m more than you could ever handle to be QUITE honest. I am returning to myself and it feels so fucking good.
Duane Michals - Primevera (Springtime)
I am so close to finishing the semester but I feel as though my work load will not stop here. I want to be filled with projects all summer long and I am really excited about that.
Life has been treating me very kindly as of late and I am so grateful.
I have a ton to share so I will be back soon!
So fuck you
And I do not miss you.
